I’ve
been skipping these end of the year blog post I use to do every year for the
past couple years but since I’m in the writing mood I might as well do one this
year. I guess this year was pretty good as I step back and reflect on it. I
graduated from ASU with my Bachelor’s then got accepted to Graduate school at U
of A soon after making my move in June to Tucson. I have a successful start
with that but not as successful as I wanted it to be due to taking on more than
I could handle leading me to my main resolution for 2013: DON’T TAKE MORE THAN
I CAN HANDLE…I think that is a good one, saying No should somehow tie in there
as well. Next, the worst month of the year is usually my favorite one because
it involves my birthday and Halloween as well as the best weather and colors
and that was October. Life is too short and you don’t realize it until you lose
those you love and also have other personal demons I must deal with and resolve
if not I will not be happy ever. I cried
so much that month that I just couldn’t cry after a while, and I do not want to
relive that again. I made a decision to better myself in November by accepting
that I have some personal issue I have been dealing with for a long time. I am
trying to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin and also accepting
that I am in a relationship that if we continue for our planned 40 years and
get married, it won’t be his first and he has a kid as well: not that I didn’t
know all this but this is something that I have an issue with that I am working
on my own. I either accept being #2 or move on and try and follow my past plan
of being someone’s first…I really don’t find it fair to just move on when do
love this guy and has been so supportive of me, even with this issue, I guess
things are just a step at a time and I have to remember that I CHOSE THIS CUP.
Finally,
this last month of December I have made decisions that I hope will be for the
best especially with being in school and that is to leave Starbucks. I have
given a lot of my time to this company and as much as I will miss it, the time
has come to close this chapter. I thank EVERYONE I worked with and ALL my
customers even the crazy one that threw a cheese Danish at my head and made me
cry, because all of those memories and the experience has helped mold me into
the person I am. I think I wouldn’t have to social skills I have now without
the Starbucks experience. I hope that I finish school as planned and even if I
get a 3.0 all the way, I will take it which I cannot believe I am writing that
down since I would NEVER had said that in the past. I just want to be the best
I can for me and for all those that will have to deal with me. I plan for
better health, mentally and physically as well as being stronger in speaking up
and dealing with my emotions.
I wish everyone a safe and happy new year and I hope that
people continue to remember the important things in life and love those around especially
you family!
Peace, Love and May the force be with you all,
Amy
