Goodbye 2012

                I’ve been skipping these end of the year blog post I use to do every year for the past couple years but since I’m in the writing mood I might as well do one this year. I guess this year was pretty good as I step back and reflect on it. I graduated from ASU with my Bachelor’s then got accepted to Graduate school at U of A soon after making my move in June to Tucson. I have a successful start with that but not as successful as I wanted it to be due to taking on more than I could handle leading me to my main resolution for 2013: DON’T TAKE MORE THAN I CAN HANDLE…I think that is a good one, saying No should somehow tie in there as well. Next, the worst month of the year is usually my favorite one because it involves my birthday and Halloween as well as the best weather and colors and that was October. Life is too short and you don’t realize it until you lose those you love and also have other personal demons I must deal with and resolve if not I will not be happy ever.  I cried so much that month that I just couldn’t cry after a while, and I do not want to relive that again. I made a decision to better myself in November by accepting that I have some personal issue I have been dealing with for a long time. I am trying to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin and also accepting that I am in a relationship that if we continue for our planned 40 years and get married, it won’t be his first and he has a kid as well: not that I didn’t know all this but this is something that I have an issue with that I am working on my own. I either accept being #2 or move on and try and follow my past plan of being someone’s first…I really don’t find it fair to just move on when do love this guy and has been so supportive of me, even with this issue, I guess things are just a step at a time and I have to remember that I CHOSE THIS CUP.

                Finally, this last month of December I have made decisions that I hope will be for the best especially with being in school and that is to leave Starbucks. I have given a lot of my time to this company and as much as I will miss it, the time has come to close this chapter. I thank EVERYONE I worked with and ALL my customers even the crazy one that threw a cheese Danish at my head and made me cry, because all of those memories and the experience has helped mold me into the person I am. I think I wouldn’t have to social skills I have now without the Starbucks experience. I hope that I finish school as planned and even if I get a 3.0 all the way, I will take it which I cannot believe I am writing that down since I would NEVER had said that in the past. I just want to be the best I can for me and for all those that will have to deal with me. I plan for better health, mentally and physically as well as being stronger in speaking up and dealing with my emotions.

I wish everyone a safe and happy new year and I hope that people continue to remember the important things in life and love those around especially you family!

Peace, Love and May the force be with you all,

Amy