Lately, I have been a mess! With all of the excitement of relocating to Tucson for graduate school I have also been extremely stressed out! I literally forgot how to spell my last name and my brain is constantly throbbing with a sharp pain from just continuously thinking of everything! I'm hoping some of this stress simmers down since I am moving on the 22nd of this month which is 2 weeks away! I know a lot of my stress right now is just trying to figure out how I'm gonna do it ALONE!
I have always been around people and moving out by myself, will be different. Knowing that I will not be able to see my family when ever is going to be a bit strange at first but I know eventually someone will come down and say hello. I think my main worry lately has been the fact that I will be in a relationship where I will probably only see my boyfriend one every other week. Even though we see each other once or twice a week regularly, knowing that I'm an extra hour away than what I already am from him is killing me! I know it sounds silly and I try telling myself to snap out of it but I have come to the terms that I really do love Quentin. I never thought I could let myself feel this emotion again in the extent that I have because I did that once and totally had my heart broken not once but twice by the same guy. I guess the only difference between then and now is that I have become smarter in getting to the love stage than with the last, which made me more sure that I am madly in love with him. I fear this feeling but I also embrace it because it brings me the happiness I was lacking for a few years before him.
I know in my heart that we can still make things work apart and I just need to keep hoping for him to get his break down in Tucson so we can be together everyday possible. Next Friday we will be heading back down to Tucson for an other meet and greet at a potential place of work for him. I really hope he gets it! For now, I'll just keep moving forward and keep loving like I have never loved before. Here's to the present and future.
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